Sunday, April 18, 2004
soo sadies came and went... so now im blogging..... simple..... well saides was phun i guess.... net at yens house... then went to islands.... stupiD hawaiian (never thought id say that)... heart burn the whole night.... yeah.... lessee there was the bounce house stuff.... meeh and joel did this bungee running thing....then beat each other with giant fists.... oh yeah also props to patapov stay on the bull for a crazy long tyme... then there was the caricature man who drew us discoing.... so we didn't get to dance until like 9:30... yeah like any other dance... not really... i ono... gave meeh tyme to think.... which is odd music music was blaring really loudly... it a thing I do... go to dances and think.... like junior high.... awkward slow dances... a million trains of thought running through my head.... btw i have no idea who that girl's name was that i first slow danced with.... :P.... sighz.... wait hold on.. looking through old year book.... .... .... Deanna Gutierrez.... funny... its the faces i remember... i remember her dragging meeh onto the dance floor while i reluctantly sat with all the other guy w/o girlfreinds ( JH girlfreinds... wat a joke... the idea of it, i mean) ..... only talked to her a few times.... since im on the topic of Junior high.... a few names should be said, for i might forget them.... (if n/e of you are reading this..... "suprise!") Camille Shek... i remember giving her random glances to see if she would notice.... haha didn't have the nerve to walk up and say hello per say.... Becky dontrecallthelastname... Texas Tim's twin.... not in yearbook cuz she moved late from ...texas.... all those time you play Magic with meeh.... Ji Chu....Choo?...attracted physically.... :b ..... sighz..... oh yeah and i was pit captain.... hahaz.... good times.... so looking back through the last 12 years.... 15....off the top of my head... girls, i would say, i liked... mostly never getting up the courage to say anything.... haha i remember math camp ... yes i went to a few... (geek) ... this girl karen.... 3 week camp... dances every friday night.... never got within 10 feet during one..... wait wait Becky's last name is Salz or something close to it yeah, Becky Salz.... the rest of the list ill blog when i look back through 16+ years... no worz won't forget you..... sighz.... well about the rest of the day.... in the beginning... 9 o'clock got the troy had a donut, hey song in the rain....stupid car show... they better pay us well.... then a three hour drive to UCSD for the admit day thing..... got there late... ate Wendy's and left.... three hour drive back.... went to the mall got a smaller shirt... then got home... only to sit down for a couple of minutes, then went off to yen's house.... so the day was i guess ok.... i have done that in a while.... rate my days.... i used to do that.... at the end of everday... i would say something like "bad day".... so today was ok..... so up next is prom.... looking forward to that i guess... whiles away.... people think i write this for ppl to read... i write this for myself... somthings i juss wanna say... to myself but with the intent of letting ppl who care read it and knoe some stuff about meeh....for one thing im tearing right now... i tend to do that either when im extremely depressed, or coming down from an emotional high point.... don't knoe which.... this happens a lot more often when i haven't cried in a while.... those guys who say crying is for wimps.. plz come within kicking range.... it always good to release thoughts and feelings.... this is cheating... im releasing my emotions.. to the general crowd of the whole internet... they probably don't knoe meeh.... still i feel that their is a chance in a million that one the person who i meant this for actually understands it.... if you love them, set them free.... to be the way they want to be... good quote... over fitting maybe ... nighty nighty.... can't.... so much more to say.... complete tomorow.... when i don' feel the need to my head on the keyboard.... well yeah... sweet dreamz... nighty nightz... peace out