Friday, July 16, 2004
hmmm wats wrong w/ this picture.... blogging..... 4 o'clock in the morning.... hehez.... deleted my last unfinished blog cuz of a pic that was on there... hehez.... yeah, so vbs second to the last day... right after the opening... we were like... dude, we don't have a game... ahhh.. so we scronged up a few cups and a bucket, yay.. a water relay race... wasn't the safest game in the world.... 0:-/..... several collisions and slides.... but all in all, it was fun... woke up at 3 today... hehe... heh.... yeah... lessee.... yesterday.... MESSY BANANAS!.... ooo the bible bubby was "anna banana" ... hahaz.... multiple reference.... yup game we played was to transporta a banna down a line of sitting kids by way of foot.... we killed about ten the first rotation so we duct taped the bananas and used our elbows... still messy.... oh yeah happy b-day rey.... hmm its 4:20 right now... some odd reason, whenever i look at the clock... its always 4:20... a sign?..... "oh, how precious is the flow? that makes meeh white as snow, no other fount i knoe... nothing but the blood of (pause) Jesus".... stuck in my head hahaz.... dLing love hina... bored... its going about 1 Kb/s.... grrr.... hmmmm .... it seems like the longest week of the whole summer.... when though im only awake for about a third of it.... yeah today breakfast/lunch/dinner was a can of pringles and cup of soda.... soooo healthy.... yeah and yesterday... came 2 hrs early to church, sat in front of a piano and came up with new chords for "as the deer",here they are "C dm7 Bb F/A dm G7/B C C dm7 Bb F/A Gb' G7 C".... yeah bored.... so today meeh and tony sat for about an hour breaking that apart.... i love how this is in chronological order.... i love how i say "i love how".... hehe i remember we all stole that from marie a few years baq... i think.... w/e... argh and i gotta get rid of that habit of that falling inflection at the end of my sentences... its annoying even meeh..... so now for the deep and potentially un-understandable stuff.... so a few days ago, some one comes up to meeh with a concern, the truth now is that i don't knoe how to respond to it..... or for that matter my standing... in that matter.... and argh that litto fault of mine is starting to creep up again.... im not sure of it.... thats wats kills meeh... i think about it too much, and oh yeah... that tangible stuff i was talking about.... its not much use if you for a a few instance forget it... because, it starts a litto grain of fear.... like oysters who take that litto speck of sand and turn it into a black pearl.... its like this one tyme softmore year..... playing a quartet with laguna, mike winterburg, and xtina buquid.... we got the guy in the lighting booth to change the background color with the tone of our music... furioso=red, tranquillo=blue... etc... then during the concert, mike whispers something to meeh.... all i caught was "ugh its so wrong" and i said "huh" and he clarified: " the lights".... a few days after.... i thought about that moment... but i forgot about his clarification... and all i remembered "all wrong" and i started feeling bad for making a mistake in the concert because i thought he was directing the comment towards meeh.... stupid.... but that one forgotten moment started this cycle of anxiety.... phunny, its later that i write so much about it.... like above, i normally juss write a few words about an event.... yeah so the whole point of my sharing that was that i need to remind myself more of the positive things that happen... and that other problem.... argh.... day and night.... i knoe it farfetched.... maybe.... <--- that "maybe" is part of my biggest problem.... nope, a lie.... sighz... gotta fix all that.... somtimes... temptation your mind sorta turns off and lets your body have his way right? bad..... like now... i shoooould be sleeping.... gotta wake up at nine tomorrow so i can have a future... isn't that stupid.... gar.... signing up for classes at SD.... i can juss change em later.... cuz their juss gonna review them and tell us that the class is full.... also, im kinda pissed at how much freedom Warren is giving us at choosing our classes... "too much freedom" you ask? yeah its like letting a kid having the freedom to play with an electrical outlet.... out my new Lee oskar to work hehez.... beautiful.... among other things... XP.... actually im pretty pissed that most ppl aren't gonna pick up on alot of the double meaning i have in here.... not expecting them to.... but juss the fact that the few friends i have are so....incontiguous... dog barking outside.... see... even as im typing this... doubts are raising in my head... oh yeah.... ants attacked.... omg... i spent the better of the last hour commiting genocide on those buggers.... beware that man with package tape.... phoo.... sunrise in a hour.... sunrise.... sanraizu.... sighz.... i gotta go visit troy sometime.... band camp starts aug... ill make it a point to... why do i put myself through this... i could be asleep right now... and not have to think about all this life stuff... oh yeah now that i finally have the lee oskar C diatonic.... the next apple of my eye... either a G-plate for my MM...or an XB-40!.... omg whole-bending on all notes =40 reeds and still richter-tuning.... whooo.... yeah... im excited.... gonna be around $120 though.... messy... that even more than the chromatica.... which ive found very litto use for.... the sharp thing is annoying.... now i think ill sleep.... gah... took an hour to write.... so nighty night.... sweet dreamz.... and may your dreams be filled with sugarplum fairies.... hehz