Monday, July 12, 2004
whoo im soooo tired.... driving home tonight...my foot was like shaking... im that tired.... and the fact that our truck goes 30 floored when uphill doesn't help... yeah so we delivered around a hundred packages today... it was insane... and it was the first day of VBS tonight.... all those loud kids and loud music.... i feel sooo lethargic... OMG!!! THE BIRDS ESCAPED!!.... they're like flying around the house.... *close the door*.... hmmm thought of sumthing phunny/ironic worth blogging today.... but i forgot what it was....yeah so meeh keyboarding and doing games.... argh! it seems sooo last minute...every was.... like i got my hawaiian shirt a few minutes before getting to church, and we had to improv a phunner game on the spot....sighz like everything else, it doesn't seem as phun as it used to be... no doubt its as good , but its probably the repetition of it year after year...hot noodles...paperclips falling out of my pocket... fizzing diet soda... squawking of the birds...the clatter of the keyboard...swivel chair...guitar on the floor...bright screen... i ono... things that are present and truly tangible.... many things that are present but not tangible... not really tangible in the touching sense, but as in the fact that you are sure that its there....i ono... many ppl find uncertainty exciting... but it seems playing a cautious game of poker suits meeh better....then again, how is poker ever cautiously played?... in denial?... i ono.... hiding it.... hehez i hate how i blog vaguely... the whole point of my blogging... or my sole reason is actually to tell someone sumthing-- whether it be freinds or my future self...then again, what would i think twenty or so years from now reading about my past blunders, maybe i would laugh at how juvenille i was... but in a sense, i fear a future self which is callous enough to sneer the worries of a teen... sighz... i gotta close... jay out... nite nite sweet dreamz y'allz....