Wednesday, August 18, 2004
AHHHH!!!! i hate blogger!!!... i wrote about two pages of stuff that got deleted cuz there was a server error!!!..... *fuming*..... okay i will begin again..... funny how when we were younger life was simple, everything was juss black and white, on/off, 1/0, good/evil, "big bad wolf"/goldilocks(:-P)..... its seems that as i got older things started to become gray.... its no longer hot or cold, everything is warm....juss how much warm is it.... when ever i look at somthing in the gray, i feel sophisticated... that i am able to put a degree on the levels of a situation..... i think this is what we humans were created to be able to do, take a large spectrum and draw a line omewhere and say, this is this, and that is that....actually, it might not be all the good, cuz there starts to grow sayings such as "its not THAT bad", and "its really ok".... and usually it is and isn't.... the younger us aren't able to reason through many of these thoughts, but now that we are, it juss gives us another excuse.... hmmm i really dunno where i was going with that... hehz.....juss came up ish.... hmmm cahtted w/ pastor duane and jess yesterday, talked about stuff that got meeh thinking in stuff that im not doing.... it was good... oo ooo i found that one of the best feelings in the world is to sit on the counter of my dark bathroom and play my harmonica.... mine is really small, so there are alot of resonant frequencies... its really soothing.... doing that lately.... yeah and i've been listening to KFI a lot recently... (im too lazy to change the station, kost is to overplayed, and kiis is to rappy).... heard somecrazy stuff on it.... sad actually, this lady marries a guy thats left his last five wives and children, and she thinks he is in love with her.... its shocking sometimes to hear of this stuff after im shelter in my litto corner of 909.... i feel sorry for my own kids who will oneday make friends who's parents might go through some of these attrocities... back when i was younger (im an old crone).... i found out that a friends' parents had juss divorced... i was shocked back then.... actually the divorce rate in america is going down 47% in 1990 to 41% now..... which is good, but thats only one of the facets of how far this nation's fallen.... i knoe ive blogged on this before... but i juss think its cruel how kids are being taught these days.... the "pusuit of happiness" has truely been taken to new depths, if you are the best, you will be happy, and then they mix that with the humanistic education they go through where "humans are good" and "if you try hard enough, you can be n/e thing", well not everyone can be an astronaut, and not everyone can be president... who will work our farms?, who will run our factories?... see, now you have a bunch of factory worker that realized that they aren't fulfilled cuz they aren't an astronaut... and what do you get, a bunch of unhappy, miserable blue-collar workers.... im not saying that we shouldn't encourage our kids, its juss that should they be so puffed up with the so-called "self-esteem?" ... another thing that is a tad anooying this whole "david must always beat golliath".... thats true in most cases, if david is righteous and goliath is actually oppressive... but what does this spawn? a bunch of kids who think "i must be right, im small like david, and my parents are goliath".... not in those exact words but that idea.... and now you've created an army of little'uns that don't respect their parents... see they don't understand that punishment isn't the same as oppression.. then you have the government somehow siding with with them and restricting a parent's power saying" oh, they're juss abusing their kids"... but where do abusive parents come from?.... lenient grandparents...garrr.... i hate it when i do this, commenting on socialogical problems.... comments don't really do much these days...