Thursday, November 11, 2004
knoe wat it is really?.... my lifestyle the last four years... shaped this mess... ppl, who don't knoe what im talking about, don't read into it... ask meeh if u want... juss so annoying... i wonder what would happen when its for reals... can i handle it?... casuality (a word?) isn't my thing... i'd really rather dress in a suit than in shorts... but the conflicting thing is that, its only when i'm outside.... company is nice, ever have that feeling of removal? like ur watching a movie... its sometimes nice, to be a spectator.... oo, i found the best place in the world... well place and time, cuz everywhere can suck in times of a war or drought or sumthing... but its on the roof of douglas at about 3 in the morning... all the smokers have left and the stars are out... clear smogless nights... sit on the bench and reflect.... gotta get my star chart many stars are only seen here.... gosh, i love the sky, and the air here... my dream is almost fulfilled!.... except for this tree... sighz, what a strange goal in life... then again, everyone's goal in life really doesn't mean n/e thing when they die... so mines legit...