Tuesday, October 11, 2005
then again, who am I kidding?... not something you can put down easily... ever heard of seasons?... very nice theory... actually its an excuse to be lazy... mementos... memorabilia... reminicient... nostalgia... soo many words in our society to describe a personal past... funny, i like thinking and pining about mine, when it really is no big deal... tons of people have worst pasts... walking along la jolla village drive, or villa la jolla whichever the other day... passed a veteran on the side of the road... how sad must his past be... and here i am complaining about mine?... funny people... yeah, i've heard that thing like "we all have our different trials in life" ... BS.... the fact remains he was begging for coffee money from college students... so the question remains, does money really contribute to happiness... and the answer society would like to tell you, beleive it or not is that it doesn't. I mean watch a movie... "oh, the good things in life are free", or "i'll be happy as long as we're in love"... was debating about marriage with a freind... what makes a good married couple?... is it love?... i mean, tons of people claim to be in love... at first then soon fall out of love... im not saying that money will make a good marriage, but how much more time and energy can ou spend on your wife if you didn't have to think about paying off debts and whatnot... im not completely cynical yet... there are tons of people who enjoy their lives simply making ends meet... yet, wouldn't it be easier?... sidetracked... so... i dunno... i guess people aren't given the luxury of chosing their financial stability... i really can't comment... seems kind of like a far-off jump anyways... but omg, im 19... the average age of an american male to marry is around 26... so in about seven years... chances are..... maan... i ono... i guess i've had about three times that to think about things... but people change with age... maybe my views would change before that... but still... seven years... pastor told me once... and made so much sense... at the time... "marry young, so that you can spend more time with the one that you love"... makes so much sense... hehe reminicing about the "six white horses" song... sidetrack... so yeah... the thing is that its sooo against all the teachings i;ve ever known... maan... the chinese culture... i ono, i was thinking about what life must've been like in the past (and some remote places) when the institute of pre-arranged marriage was still.. instituted... i mean, the almost freedom you would have... to knoe for certain you future spouse... its like death, since its inevitable everything else will not be takenn for grant... backwardsish, i knoe... why not... sigh, im spending waay too much time thinking about this... and ofcourse... im always right about one thing... and sadly it still holds... nite nite, or actually i gotta right an essay, now that its 3... ciao