Saturday, November 05, 2005
wow, i said something that was totally a lie... that i saw the best and worst of human nature... nope, just the worst... fate has the most twisted ways to teach me lessons... but at least i've completely learned em... i hope... not saying that all the events that has transpired tonite did so to teach me a lesson, for that would detact from the gravity of the situation... fate really has interesting ways... had another dream... you knoe what dreams are? their tools for fate to to teach a lesson... without hurting anyone... its seems that the day make me grow and the night kinda puts growth pills in my water... seriously... strange ways... one thing that this dream taought me is a that i don';t have to be responsible for everything... ( the least of the lessons)... really, some things, i just put my impulsive care into, but have no real value wheter my contribution existed or not... hmmm, actually, thats kinda depressing, if i involve myself into useless causes.... err causes that i can't contribute to... makes you kinda rethink the way that ur doing things... the chicken in my sandwich is going bad... i can kinda taste the weird feeling... actually i know what that weird feeling is... water for chocolate... food is indelably tied to emotions, which is tied to music, which is tied to literature... i guess these are really spiritual things... music for sure... the skippy cd put in tonite dampened the mood... a spiritual thing... tribes will dace around music for hours... spiritual thing... heard something about the base rhythm reminding a person of the heartbeate in the mother's womb... i guess that could be true... so yeah... i guess never again... i really never felt the implications of the other side... and i really don't have a reason to complain about that... at there are worse situations... i really don't think i cna do justice to the gravity of the situation with the amount of words i can words that i can use... amount being different from number... the sad thing is: the whole world will gloss it over in the next few hours... it might as well never have happened... zure a few people will have to deal with the consequences, but most of us... just happy little lives... so the title of my blog... goes for everyone... you can become famous, become rich... but the great equalizer will come one day... and all were left with is so speak for our little lives... hmm im gonna make a stephen king reference... In "the stand," the most chilling phrase in the book was "No great loss"... describing the deaths of common people that had no relevence to the plot... "no great loss"... could be the stor of our lives... if we don't do something about it... nite