Monday, December 25, 2006
everyone is entitled some happiness right... then again, why should i feel like happiness is entitled... maybe its from living in america for so long... i guess, the modern day has reimterpreted the pursuit of happiness as "the right to happiness"... but really, im just tired... i say that a lot... i know... but really, im just emotionally sapped... normally, you knoe, life begets life... the spirit of things are supposed to get you higher... the "moment" at it would, is not happening... feedback doesn't happen without a catalyst... therefor, im tired... somebody told me something today that im really having mixed feelings about... i can't express it... not to anyone, not ever... apparently, fate is disallowing me... how much can you fill before the balloon pops?... its not like i should be shocked at it... its not like i really should care... in fact, i have no obligation to care... i hate that word, obligation... its "obligation" that breeds apathy... don't believe it?... help thatman on the street... no?... because you have no obligation?... but in this case, its less of not having an obligation, as i really shouldn't... now its bugging me, and i can't get my mind off of it... need an escape... i hate this feeling of being trapped... not by any circumstance... it's like animals that been shocked too many times, sooner or later, they just stay clear of the fence... now the fence is gone... but the memory of the shocks are still there... that person's also told me as much... what is profoundness?... why are things profound?... because we have never seen it before, but do they still stay profound once we have?... i guess, it really doesn't bother me that much... and im just over thinking it... on the grand scheme of things... there's no reason for it to... in the grand scheme of things, theres not much reason to do anything, then again...