Wednesday, March 07, 2007
It seemed like everything just clicked today... for apparently no reason at all... mybe thats the thing, I woke up with a good outlook and just went from there... life's coming at me fast... three job interviews in the next couple of weeks... i don't think i'm really ready for any of this... but I guess there no more degree of ready i can be... the stutter's getting worse.... it's just that I don't really talk anymore... there's nothing useful to say... I grew up thinking that the was a sense of "profoundness"... I mean that a piece of art wasn't just open for interpretation, it has a certain profound quality to it... just because it was what it was.... I guess it's sort of demystifying to find out that the reason why things are beautiful or that things are profound was because people said they were... what make the words of great men something to quote? ... I for one quote people only because I find their perspective amusing or that it sums up a certain notion of life nicely into a nice poetic package... But really how profound is it?... maybe it's because no one has ever thought of it before... but then again, there really is nothing new under the sky... I guess it speaks to the weakness of the mind that can be sway by standardizing critical thought... so if weak minds are those that can be swayed, then whats the differece between a strong mind and one that is arrogant... I keep hearing: "You should open up your mind" "free your thinking" .... that sounds great and all but theres a catch... "free your thinking, and think like us"... I really don't mean to polarize the subject, but which should we live by: to turn towards ever whim at every changing of the tides, or to hold fast like a rock and be still?... Why is one mode of thinking worth holding on to? over another per say.... but what merit to we compare ideologies?... is it by the popularity of the idea?... Is it be the truth that is made apparent?... or by some inner conviction?... see, for me, none of those quite fit the bill... they all lack a certain... profoundness..., beauty... hmmmm, its creepy... they say time is cyclical, but i know something that will never happen ever again: March 7, 2007. 3:32:45... whats so special about this time? nothing... but it's alos unique in that the steam of time will never run there again... the metaphor is true... time is like sand that trickle between our fingertips... there realy is no way to hold on... oh, and there really is nothing profound about that... I could have compared time with a leaky faucet or a bleeding hemophile... it conveys the same statement but without the poetic justification... but i guess it's the sort of BS we live in these days...