Sunday, August 16, 2009
Ok. It's been six months and I it's about time that I revisit this hovel of a blog. So the questions is what has changed in six months? Nothing. Well, nothing of import anyway. Notice that I've dropped my ellipses, it's for the better. I need to practice writing more. It's strange that writing now really means typing into a text box. Let's see, I've found it increasingly more difficult to concentrate; it is as if my mind mind needs to be distracted. Internet doesn't help. Oh, Olivia and Stephen tied the knot (yay!). That was another exciting event. Odd, that the first thing I think about as important in the last months was someone else's happiness. Oh well.

Getting way too addicted to Go. I have around 15 browser tabs open at once normally, and invariably, six will be on the subject. It's OK though. Been on a diet lately, lost near ten pounds so far. I haven't seen 16_ on a scale in a long time. Still, why do I feel like something is missing?

For a long time, I've felt that I understood most of how the world works. It was all quite simple; but, my broad rosy strokes I used to paint my understanding can't quite agree with the doubtful/skeptical/bandwagon other half of my being. I can blame this on Nor-Cal all I want but I probably would be just as torn as if I was raised here and then moved down South. The difference in ideology is striking. They tell me to live o a firm foundation, but as try and grow wiser, I realize that other are anchored on different ones.

This optimism I used to have also extended to my own personal perception of self. It's the realization of one's own fallibility that is the most injurious.